then what to do... nothing i believe..
well. life was pretty crazy these last months.. now in india... u know...
life ka funda hai ok
Many castings, many things to think, many friends, many parties...
too manys for me...
my life became crazy... i really was feeling things so strange inside of me...
im needy... desperate...
im a person like that.
i always need someone, to take care of me, someone who loves me..
no. what im saying, this is not me... i like to be the one who loves!
i always love...im always in love.. and thats why i was feeling so empty...
how can i be here... living... without any LOve? completely alone!?
its impossible for me..
and now...
i finally.. fortunately.. or... unfortunately... i found someone to feel something..
but just to feel! dont think that i am in love with someone that loves me.. this is too easy...
and i dont like it...
but actually i dont like also to be in love with someone that dont even like me!!!
but.. like angad says...
what to do! what to do?
I really prefer... be in love .. instead of be single... with no one... u know... well
who understand women?!?
The feeling of dont know what im feeling... the fast heartbeat... the cold temperature u feel on ur neck when u r near by the beloved... the sweat on ur hands... the inquietude of wait for the one to enter on the party with so many friends... but u went there just to see him!
the smiles u give when he looks at u... just to say hi.. or bye... or... "tudo bem"( means how r u in portuguese) ....
ahhh so many feelings... ahh yeah. the "manys "again in my life that makes me feel so confused.. and lost..
why im like these... i never had anything with this guy.. how can i be feeling this kind of thing...
and i cant control myself.. always talking about him with everyone.. now everyone really thinks im a fool.. a poor gal in love... for someone that will never ever look at me...
do u know what?
I DONT CARE!
i really dont.. im happier now.... cause at least i feel something beautiful. for someone! even if he doenst know.. who cares... who has to care? only me, isn't it? but i dont! so... whatever!!! i prefer do anything to see him.. but at least see...
i feel good... i feel better.... then before... completely alone.
and hope never ends.. not to me... im not being that crazy girl anymore, who always hit on the handsome guys... i prefer to wait... and see what God plans to me.. to my life...
and maybe i just have to forget him... but for now.. i will just let my soul feel.... this beautiful feeling...
